20th Feb 2012

Post written in the departure lounge Auckland Airport. 1am

Hands are shaking, heart is beating fast, my eyes are searching for anything familiar but I currently see only things that freak me out! As like magic my Ipod feels my fear and switches to "Shapeshifter" breathe Sam. I listen to the lyrics "I must be strong to carry on, now I will make it on my own" And yes I will make it on my own. It is my time! I've just said goodbye to the most important people in my life and although my body is in shock, not a tear has left my eyes. Leaving home though was a different story, waving that last goodbye to my Louie dog just made me loose control and the whole drive to the airport tears were streaming down my face.

Ok its 1.01am the flight crew and pilot have just walked past.

They look calm and collected. Well thats a good sign and Florence and her machines has just sung the lyrics "we are too young to die". so thats that then, this flight will be sweet! The departure lounge is slowly filling up and at last I spot another blonde guess I need to get used to being the different one!